aleatoryEpiphany

Sooo much has happened in the past two and one fourth years. I've had several psychotic breakdowns, stopped writing, began writing again, stopped writing again (my muse is currently brain-dead, it seems), and had to be "hospitalised" twice. That is in quotes because where I went - CSU (Crisis Stabilisation Unit) - isn't really a hospital. It's a unique but truly fantastic place to go when things happen like, oh, your meds completely breaking down and failing to work which causes you to have constant, massive, terrifying hallucinations. Oh I've learned some cool things though. First off, your brain reacts to hallucinatory stimuli the exact s

I’ve been gone a while. I’ve moved, living in my own place, starting trauma therapy (more intensive than my usual therapy, digging into deep shit) and will be attempting to work on the trauma that makes it difficult for me to journal. Basically, privacy invasion leading to threats to have me institutionalised make me feel like journalling is no longer… safe, on the daily basis or weekly basis sort of thing. I can do one after a long period of time, just not regularly, like I need to be doing. Laptop died, basically - it still works a little but not well and I am keeping it off until I get my new external and can transfer fi